sunday summary #8
what i'm reading / this week i finished "scratch," edited by manjula martin and also "i'm sorry to disturb the peace" by patti yumi cottrell (finally). currently, i'm half way through "braving the wilderness" by brene brown. can you tell i don't ever focus on one book at a time?
what i'm thinking / sometimes when i'm feeling stuck and depressed and unmotivated, what i need most is movement. i need a jump start, a reminder that my body feels so much better when it's a little sore from exercise than it does after i lay in bed for twelve hours a day. a lot of times, i don't feel like getting out of bed. and it's hard to remember that pushing through the motions sometimes helps a damn lot.
what i'm writing / i feel so much guilt as i think back on the last week of writing. i was in bed most of the week with a very nasty cold that morphed into a nasty chest cough. my inner critic wants to immediately follow up that statement by saying, "yes, but you could have written while you were in bed. you slacked off for way too long." and to some extent, my inner critic is correct. i was capable of writing in bed...but i didn't. criticizing how little i wrote last week isn't helpful at this point, however. so instead i will say that i have solid plans to write this week. i want to finish the third draft for my pitch on my handmaid's tale essay, as well as write short summaries of two other pitches.
what i'm listening to / for some reason i have been alternating between taylor swift's 1989 album and dvorak's new world symphony. i don't have any rationale supporting this reality.
what i'm hoping / that i will have the courage to block out solid times to sit and write this week. that i will see those blocks of time in my planner and follow through. getting my butt to the chair is the hardest part. make time and the words will come.
what i'm fearful of / so much. my brain has been living in feardom all week and existing there full time drains so much energy and motivation and hope. so right now, i don't really want to think about what i'm fearing. it doesn't feel productive at the moment. i know the fears are there, sitting in the back of my head. just waiting to jump out and make me flinch. but right now, i'm not going to let them take over.
what i'm about to do / go for a quick walk to clear my head. sit back down to write. then, write.